Stress, Disappoinments, Happiness& much more..

I had all these mixed feelings in these 4 months... Will describe each in brief.. At least from now onwards i ll be sincere to blog here...
TATA TECHNOLOGIES
With Some hope i attended the Tata Technologies interview.. The Mam who gave the PPT for Tata Technologies was good.. Don know why my friends didn't like her.. Well not necessarily every one's expectations are same.. Then we had 1st round.. Aptitude.. The paper was a bit tough.. i was only able to get answers for few questions.. Venkat made a blunder by marking all the answers in question paper itself.. Bad luck venkat.. The results were announced.. And i got my name in the 3rd(final) panel.. Karthick found his name in the 1st panel.. Dharmendra's name was not there in the selected list.. So Sad.. TATA missed him... Then i attended the Group Discussion round.. The Title was a bit simple..'Business and ethics dont go together..' On the allocated time of 20 mins the mechatronics girl started to conclude in 10 mins itself..At that time i had not even Started..Then i started to speak my points..The situation in the gd hall changed into strange a strange one.. i'll say one point and the mechatronics girl and dhillip will start concluding.. Then i ll speak my next point.. then again they will conclude..I think whatever points i spoke was right.. But my English was not good as others.. The results was said to be announced on the next day.. I had very little hope.. But the selected students got a message from PAT office.. I didn't get any.. Its Ok.. No problem.. Karthick's title was a bit difficult.. 'Whether Automation in industries is necessary or not'..
I don know whether i would have spoken any a single word if i had got that topic.. Congrats Anay, Prashanth and Shiva kumar..
Completion of the Sem exams..
The semester exams went well.. I enjoyed the subjects in this semester.. Both the subjects were comparatively easy.. Got C grade for EHD and B for ESD and Seminar..
Project Review..
The title i had chosen as my project was 'Overtaking assistance using GPS and RFID'.. Initially i got an idea regarding vehicle to vehicle communication.. Because Jeyaram sir had said that working on inter vehicular communication would be nice for Automotive Electronics Students.. Then i developed the idea of over taking assistance.. It has already been developed but i think no one had used RFID&GPS combo for that.. I started investing lot of emotions in my project like SRK has invested it in his KKR team(lol).. I had a strong doubt in my project and was asked the very same question in review by Prakash sir.. I started bluffing but he was not convinced.. Really staff's like Prakash sir and Karthikeyan sir are good.. They understand the concepts quickly.. No wonder Prakash sir is in such high designation..
TCS tragedy
We had TCS internship interview.. No one from our gang attended it, except me.. I didn't prepare anything for that interview.. I shagged off on the day before the interview and on the morning of the interview i read a topic from Jakki vasudev's 'Atanaikkum Aasaipadu..' i started from home without wearing shoes and came back to wear it.. But still i had forgotten my id card..While going in bus i prepared some 'C' concepts and saw a cyclist continuously following our bus till Vellore VIT Green Circle.. In college i got id card from Shaam.Then i went to Chenna Reddy auditorium.. There i prepared some 'C' programs.. The test started very late.. No PPT session.. The questions were really tough.. Out of 84 questions i didn even read half of the questions.. But remaining 40 i tried to solve and got answers for few also.. As there was no negative marking i attended all the questions...The results was said to be announced next week.. One morning i had a dream in which i was missed out in TCS interview.. I went to college that day.. While having lunch in food court i got a message from Karthick.. In which he had mentioned that why i didn't let him know about my selection in TCS intersns.. i thought he was kidding.. And i was talking about my plans after getting a settled job.. My plan was to learn Piano.. Then we came to lab i was Surprised&shocked to see my name was really there in the TCS internship selected list.. In that i was mentioned to report at chennai on 7th October.. I went worried rather than getting happiness about this selection.. Karthikeyan sir was so keen in sending me TCS..He even said that when i didnt take this offer he will give only E grade for my project.. All my relatives and my parents insisted me to join.. My father's view was very sentimental.. His point is that I was asked to join in TCS on my Birthday.. Next thing, that day is a 'no moon' day.. So he was very keen to make me join.. i was confused.. I don know whether to laugh or cry.. In fact i cried on Oct 6th morning.. While brushing my teeth tears rolled down my eyes as i m going to miss everything..My Home, Village, friends and most of all VIT.. And these guys made me cry again by giving me a B'day gift.. A nice Parker Pen along with a greeting card.. The Card read 'Pls Come back Soon..But not before TCS internship.. And also with a Girl friend'.. Tears filled my eyes.. I went to bathroom and cried.. Then i came back to lab and cried again.. I'm unable to control my emotions.. I went really attached to Dharmendra, Sunil, VIT, train everything.. Then we went to Khanna hotel.. Had food.. And we came to bus stand.. Karthikeyan sir suggested me to go in an AC bus.. But i took a SETC and bid adieu to my friends.. I Started to CHENNAI..

Tata Technologies Interview

Tomorrow i'm attending my 1st interview in VIT... TATA TECHNOLOGIES.. Core Company... Dream offer.. Have to prepare... Will blog later...

Gratifying Memories..

It has been more than a month since i saw her... Like to write some of the sweet memories which strengthened my determination for her and which keeps me moving nowadays...Also the special thing is 'to write about her with a song like 'Hosanna' is playing in the background'.. Divine..
The day which i like to describe is pleasing.. I had been gifted with a wonderful morning that day..Last night there was a good rain in our place.. I entered the ambur railway station and was walking towards the end of the platform.. I saw a girl looking at me and i turned down remembering 'my Goddess'.. In a jiffy i recognized that girl who was looking at me was not a girl but an angel and saw her with a surprise in my eyes.. Yup... 'She' was there with her brother and a man waiting for the same train in which i travel regularly.. I was walking on air.. i don want to miss this gifted day.. So i decided not to go to the end of the platform where i and my peripa(my dad's brother) will always wait... i was continuously seeing( admiring) her without worrying about the man with her.. The train came.. I was waiting for her to board a coach so that i can also get into the same.. She got into a coach and i also entered the same coach in the other entrance.. And i took a seat where 4 people can sit (me, my Angel, her brother,that man)..i did calculate like that... She entered the coach with her mouth full of laugh( Hmmm).. The man with her made all my calculations wrong by taking another seat behind mine..(ahhhhhhhh).. I quickly recovered by taking the opposite seat so that i can see her at least.. The train started.. Without any hesitation i was continuously watching her.. To my surprise, today i noticed a mole below her lips( Hurrah!..).. Pretty.. She knows that i'm watching her but both our eyes met rarely.. After some 20 minutes i realised some strange wetness at the back of my pant(trouser)... Then only i realized that i had sat in a place drenched by last night's rain... i m sure that i cant sit in that place anymore... Also i need to make my pant dry before i get down at katpadi... Or else i ll become a victim to make fun... So i left that place and was standing near the door for air..In a station i got down the train so that she can see me from the window.. Then i started standing behind her seat..I tried to bend a little in the running train to see her in the window but didn succeed.. Thanks to the Signal engineer, the train was a bit late on that day..Then my peripa came and i explained him my 'trouser wetting' experience..Both of us were standing behind her seat..She had her breakfast on the train.... My peripa suggested her(his daughter in law!!!) an easy way to wash her hands in the running train.. At last Katpadi station came.. I got down and before taking the steps for going out i turned and saw her.. yes she was seeing me.. I m blessed..
Hope this might be my best train journey so far..
The next incident which i'm going to explain is quite funny... I went to Karumbur Telephone exchange regarding broadband connection...There i saw a telephone directory.. We don have a telephone directory at home.. Also i wish to search for 'her' house phone no. in that.. I was talking to aanji sir(exchange officer) about the directory and the jobs in BSNL and many things.. Then he went inside a room.. Quickly i looted the karumbur exchange pages alone from the directory by tearing it and kept the papers in bag.. Then aanji sir returned from the room and gave me a shock by giving a new telephone directory.. I don know how to react..I know i did a blunder but didn confess my mistake..(All is fair in love and war).. Then i returned home with a new directory along with separate Karumbur exchange pages..
Then there are quite a few incidents i can think and rejoice.. One day after crossing my house she turned and saw me from the bus.. Then one evening after talking to her i was muttering a song( Etho seikirai from Vamanan) and when i switched on the tv the same song was going on..Actually there are many such song coincidences like Mazhai peiyum pothu( from renikunda) and suttum vizhi chudare(from Gajini)..
Recently i went to a shop for recharge.. There i saw Cadbury Perk glucose(wrapped in blue cover) chocolate.. That is the chocolate which i was giving her every week while giving the book..Now she is not here to give.. I thought of buying the chocolate but for some reason i didn buy... Later in home my mom gave me the same Perk glucose chocolate( She has never given me such chocolates).. Is this fate or coincidence??
Sometimes when i think positively about our relation i have heard the lizard yawling sound (which is considered as a positive sign by elders)... Thank you lizards.. You are also making my days..
These incidences and coincidences assure me that there is something special between us and the relation between us is pre-written,certain, and destined... I may be wrong or even i may have gone mad also, but i don't want to go wrong and lose this sweet battle...
Expecting some positive events to occur to write in my next post...

Vinnai Thaandi Varuvaya...

I can't express the measure of my love&passion for this film.. A film which is still disturbing me even after 3 months of its release..Hats off to Gautham Vasudev Menon for presenting such a neat love story.. It has been many years since i saw such a neat romantic story.

Within 1 week, I have seen this film 3 times in theatres and n^n times in my lappy..

Thanks to A.R.Rehman.. All the songs are magical... Especially Hossanna & Mannipaaya.. Gautham , has very beautifully extracted the soul for this film from this genius.. Like Gautham's previous films the songs of this film are my best-loved hit numbers..

Next kudos is to Thamarai.. Don't know from where she's getting her Tamizh... Simply magnificent.. Some of her lyrics has become my anthem nowadays.. Some of them are

Vaazhvukum pakkam vanthen

Saavukkum pakkam nindren..

Anbil thodangi, Anbil mudikiren

  Oru paarvai siru paarvai
Udhirthaal udhirthaal 
Pizhaipen,pizhaipen podiyan......

Varam kidaithum naan thavaraviten

Mannippaya...

Hmmm endru sollu pothum...

Thank you Mam.. You have upgraded my taste..

This is best film for both Simbhu and trisha so far..

Simbhu is cute in this film.. And dances to the tunes heavenly..Trisha
is my favorite actress and has did a proud job..

Regarding story i cant mention a single scene as my favorite as i'm 
in love with all the scenes..The entire film..
The climax twist is Tricky..Awesome.. ..Telugu version lacks this..

That's their taste..Can't comment on that.. 
i think i like sad endings a bit more than happy endings..But i wish to
have a happy ending(beginning?!)in my personal life..

Finally my hearty thanks to Gautham vasudev menon.. 
This is one of the very few films closest to my heart...  
You have added colours to love...

Thanks a ton...

I Miss her...

The days without seeing her are hectic.. :-( But the game is still on... :)

After feb 13th i didn't see her much till the commencement of her board exams on march 1st.. On march 1st i was in a state of mind to wish her for the exams... i don't had any other intentions other than that... But i didn't expect her to travel with someone in a bike along with her friend.. My plans of wishing her is collapsed.. While returning back home she saw me and quickly turned her face in the other direction.. May be she was angry with me for proposing her... That too in simple, un-poetic manner... What to do... My hastiness let me down while proposing..

The next 2 exams also i saw her going with that man and her friend in bike.. The man must be her relation.. Then finally i saw her coming in cycle during her chemistry and maths exams... I Just inquired how she wrote... She said 'Well' for chemistry and 'bad' for Maths..


Then finally one of the worst days of my life came... Her 'last exam'... Biology..On march 19.. I was having some CAT exam on that evening at 4... That morning i saw her going in cycle... With flowers in her head.. I still remember that sight even after 80 hard days... I know she will be late to return back home as that was the last day in her school life... She will have some fun in school.. But my idea is to talk to her at any cost on that day.. So i thought of waiting for her till 2.15 in my home... If it gets late then i had a plan of going to college in my XL itself till college .. almost 70kms.. Because i have to reach college before 4.. I know that was a stupid idea to travel that much distance within 90 mins in a moped.. But 'Anything for her' :) ...

She didn't take much time.. She came at 2.10 with her friend by her side and i saw her on the way.. She is coloured in blue and red ink on her dress, head.. she is strange in that look..
i asked her 'Is the ink enough?'
She smiled(hmmm) and said 'Ya enough'..
i asked her how was the exam..
She said Fine but Zoo was a bit difficult..
Then i asked her where she is going to spend her holidays.. Either in her home or in Arakkonam(her grandma's home)..
She said in arakkonam..
I asked about college..
She said that too in arakkonam only...
then i said 'pls don do that'
She smiled a bit and said go now..
Then i said 'Enjoy your holidays to the maximum.. See many films and first see Vinnai Thaandi Varuvaya..' (What a film it is?.. Will write a separate post about it later)
She is quick enough to look at me with a meaning..
Again i insisted her to see that film..
She said Ok.. You go now.. I want to talk with my friend'
I said 'Bye'
Then i left as it was getting late for me also.. that day i traveled in bus only as the time was enough..
The days which followed was very hectic.. i got her cousin's 'Will-phone' number... Actually i stole it from my cousin balaji... My plan is to talk to 'her' cousin and get my angel's contact number..But 'Will-phone' will have an In-built caller-id.. So i tried once from vellore 1 rupee coin phone.. Her mother answered.. I managed asking someone about Rajesh and disconnected saying sorry wrong no. Then one time i called from ambur and again her mother answered.. This time i maintained complete silence.. Then from a phone near my college.. This time her father answered and again silence from my side... Then i decided to make some of my female cousins to call her...
One day i made my cousin archana to call her and i was waiting in that conference call... That poor girl forgot to retrieve my call.. I didn't hear what they spoke.. Then archana told me that her father and that girl are not responding properly.. She said she can't manage them and unable to get anything from her..So my plan of getting 'her' number through her cousin miserably failed..
Months rolled.. Mean-while she got her results.. While entering her number for seeing her result, my heart started pounding fast as if i'm seeing my own result.. She has scored 713.. The good thing is that she has scored comparatively higher marks in English than her friends..(like me!!)...
That fine day came.. On may 27th morning... She came to school to get her mark-list.. I saw two girls coming at a distance.. I didn't expect this could be 'her' as they were walking..She usually comes in cycle.. I got a bulb glowing on my head when they crossed my home.. Yup that was 'Her' walking with her friend... I was seeing her almost after 2 months... The girl with her is laughing after seeing me.. i think they are making fun of me.. i didn't bother and went to road to see them.. At a distance i saw her turning back to look at me.. Yes the Game is still on!!... Quickly i left my home in bike saying my parents that i'm going for mobile recharge
On the way, I looked at her for a moment and asked 'What are you going to study?...'
She said B.Sc Nursing...
I asked her 'Which college'..
She said 'I have applied for Ramachandra University'..then she uttered her favorite word 'Go'..
I think 'Go' must be the word she has spoken with me for maximum number of times...
Then i was standing in the shop for recharge.. she crossed the shop.. I was constantly looking at her...While turning at the street corner She saw me... Yes i was recharged along with my mobile...:)
           On that afternoon i was talking in phone with 'Dinesh anna' regarding nursing admissions in 'Ramachandra'.. that same moment 'Her' brother crossed me wishing me Good afternoon... I was stunned when he greeted me as i was talking about his own sister's admissions right at that time..
I recovered and asked him 'You are Jagadeesh right?'
He said Yes..
Then i asked him 'How are You?'
He said fine anna... That anna is embarassing.. Its ok.. Any how one day he is going to call me Mama..Right..?
These coincidences say me that there is something between us... There were many such..I can write the coincidences alone as a separate post...
I'm extremely happy..i'm singing, jumping,dancing, watching the moon from bed(like a film actress lol).. doing all sort of crazy things....i have gone Mad..

Valentine Week( Feb 13th)..

On feb 13th morning as usual i was waiting for her.. I was having cat 1 IVN exam on that day... i had prepared something for that.. My mom and dad were having some exam supervision duty.. so they left early..Time was around 8.40.. Most of her friends left.. I was standing near the gate and saw her cousin crossing my house.. Surprisingly she told that 'She'(Godess) is on the way.. i was amazed by the words from her because her cousin will either tell nothing about 'her'or will give wrong information..
I quickly went inside my home and in the window i saw 'her' crossing my home.. She did'n even see my home which she was always doing in her corner eyes while crossing my home.. After locking the doors i left my home in 2 or 3 mins..
Today i had no confusion in her routes.. I did take the correct route and saw her going at a distance of 30 feet... after hearing my XL's sound she turned and saw me coming towards her..
After reaching her i saw her face.. she did'n look at me..
After a while i asked her 'Wont you talk to me?..
'She nodded her face expressing no'..
I asked her 'Why?'...
She said 'I thought you are talking to me in a friendly manner'.. But why did say like that yesterday?... Please don't talk to me anymore and go away from me now...
I replied ' I was thinking to propose you after your 12th exams..But you only said that your village boys are talking this and that about us.. Only because of you i expressed my love yesterday.. Otherwise i would have expressed it after you complete your 12th..'
She turned sad and said 'no, this will never work and get away from me now..
i replied 'Why are thinking like this..Don't you like me? For that she answered I don't like the thing which you are doing..  I said 'Ok do one thing.. Be as you are in your position(as a friend).. I ll be in this same position(as a lover)..We will decide the further things afterwards'.. She replied 'No.. Why should we hurt our hearts?..' Please go away..
i asked her 'Am i behaved with you in such a worst way..?'
The reply from her made me speechless...She did'n talk but started 'weeping'... Seeing this i went stuporous.. My stupid mind didn frame any quick words to console her...
I simply asked 'Why are you crying?..'
She said 'dont come with me..Thats why i m crying'...
I said 'Ok don cry.. I ll talk with you later...'
Everything would have been better if i had left at this instance.. But i think the next words from me added insult to her injury... When i said this to my friends they laughed like anything... The words which i said to her while leaving is
'HAPPY VALENTINE'.....

Valentine week.(Feb 12th)...

FEB 12
On FEB 12th morning i was waiting for her to cross my home... i was having CAT 1 'dac' exam on that evening... But as usual i did'nt prepare anything for that.... Instead i was preparing and rehearsing to propose my love for her...(Actually i was framing words to that for nearly a month)...Dharmendra was also continuously insisting me to tell my love to her as soon as possible.... So i was certain in proposing her before valentine...

At around 8 45 she crossed my house... My heart started pounding...After some time i left my house... She have 2 routes to her school... i don know which route she will take that day... So i went on the straight road.. But i was wrong.. She did take the other route... So i started going on the reverse direction of the 2nd route so that i can see her... Yes i saw her... She was having a small smile on her face(hmmmmmmmm).. i went very close to her harshly and turned my XL... She screamed 'ouuuch' in fear and stopped.... Then i started riding parallelly with her..

i asked her am i looking like 'poochikaran'?Why are you getting away from me nowadays?...

She replied 'What will i do if you are riding your bike(?!) towards me so harshly?..'

I said 'not today'... Why are you not stopping near my house if i ask you to stop?... Whats your problem?...

She said that her village's boys are saying that the boy(me) who is talking to you is in love with you.. Are you loving him?..

What did you say i asked her...

She said 'i replied them that he(me) is known to our family.. Thats why i'm talking with him'..

After a pause i told her 'How can they(his village boys) digest if a girl like you is talking to me'..(For the first time in my life i was flirting a girl)...

She stared at me for a moment... Then she asked me 'Why are you coming with me? go to your home'...

i said i'm going to college ma'..

then go away-she said..

i replied -i'll wait in other place....

I went away and was waiting for her in a lonely place on her way to school.. She came.. i smiled at her.. She also gave a small smile(hmmmmmm) but i was totally undone by her words..

She said 'Don't talk to me hereafter...'

i was collapsed and asked Why?..What happened now?..

She said 'don't need this hereafter'..

I don know what to do..But i decided not to postpone this anymore...

I started saying 'Actually i was thinking to tell this after you finish your 12th.. I love you and admire you a lot..' saying this i saw her face..

After some 2 seconds she said.. 'No i don love you'.. Please go away now...

i asked her 'Don't you feel pity for me.. i was behind you for a year..'

She said please get away from me now....

Also we are nearing her school... So i don want to talk near her school..

I'll talk to you later.. Saying this i left her...

Her thoughts filled my mind... i was unable to concentrate in my studies that day... My performance was worst on that test... 'Thought i ll get a single digit mark.. but fortunately got double digit 12 for 50'.

The worst thing is that i did'nt even tell a single word from the words i had frame to propose her..Lot of preparations, rehearsals everything went in vain...I think i'm completely losing myself whenever i see that crystal clear face..

What happened on the next day was a bit of tragedy and madness...

Will write it later...

So far sooooo Worse..

It has been a month since i blogged in here... I don Know why i have developed very slothful feelings to blog...

And its over... I'm failed in re-evaluation also... After a very long time, by seeing the result i almost broke down and cried like anything...I'm not a soft-boiled,infantile person to cry for a exam failure..Infact in the past i had not mentally moved even getting many single digit marks also... But i never ever thought, that i'll fail in automotive technology... I don deserve this failure... Also I don want to blame anyone(the evaluator in specific) for this... Whatever has happened will be for my outgrowth only...Yes I'm soothing myself...

And this time to solace myself i'm hearing 'Ovvoru pookalume' song.. Last time it was 'Ooh maname' from Ullam kettkume... Anand and Mahesh knows this comedy...

And I'll write about my 1st special valentine's day as a separate post... I don want to spoil the sensation by writing that in this post...

Quite a lot of stuffs to write about...

Will write soon...

Perpetual anxiety....

In recent days i'm persistently facing many infelicitous situations.. For past 12 days i was damp sure in proposing my love to 'her'..I phrased some poetic words and even watched some favorite super hit romantic clips from You tube.. I was preparing and rehearsing for that heavenly moment ..

A week before i was almost done with my preparations and was waiting for her..I think it would be 4.40 in the evening... To add insult to my injury, to pour oil into my burning stomach, I saw my father's elder brother (peripa) marching towards my house to see his land assets...I went and hid into my house to secure myself from falling into his eyes..If he sees me then i will be the prey for him for the next half-an-hour..He is talkative..Hiding from my home i was peeping him in the windows..After some 15 minutes he went back to his home..I got relieved.. I was like jerry hiding,peeping and running in my home to get rid of from him(Tom?...)

At last she came.. I asked her to stop.. But queerly she didn't stop.. She said that she has to go home early... I decided not to lose that day,so i said her 'today will be the last time'...Then she stopped.. i had decided not to straight away say 'I love you'.. So to begin with 'I asked whether she had the chocolate i gave her on the other day or she simply through it away on her way to home'... She said with a smile 'yes i had it'.. Saying this within a jiffy she left for her home.. I didn gain anything on that day except that smile..

Today evening,as usual, i was waiting for her.. I saw her coming at a distance.. I don know from where those 3 people came.. They stopped near my house and begin to chat..I started to curse my misfortune... I'm defeated again by some strangers.. She crossed my house seeing my thwarted face... I think i'll be the most ill-fated person in the world at the moment...

When will i get the blessing?...

Aayirathil oruvan..!

I had never seen a Tamil film like this... What an enduring attempt by Selvaraghavan.. If someone has passion for seeing very good cinema's then he/she should never miss this feast...

The main essence of the film is 'Present combating the past'... 'The point where reality and fantasy blends'...

Karthi's long await for this movie doesn't prove wrong... He had done a perfect job.. I wish him, not to get struck much with commercial masala's... If he does so, who knows one day he might be compared with legends like Sivaji..

Paarthiban has also done a great job... Whatever is necessary for the film,he has done with perfection, including dance.. Out of his many films,i think this is his best..

Reema sen seem brand new in this film.. She wins the 'best performer' of the film.. Congrats reema..

Andrea looks pretty.. Throughout the film she carries the gloominess in her eyes..She has done a great justice to her job in her 2nd film itself..

Unn mela aasadhan, Govinda govinda and the Cholan ecstasy portrays G.V.Prakash potential.. But the one which has stolen my heart is Atho antha paravai pola-remix..(not a remix actually)...

To talk about flaws-the scene before the interval block is ill-defined..Selva could have done it better..Also the scene in which reema pisses..What is the need for that scene?...

Climax scenes cues something about the LTTE's.. But these are my personal opinion...

India is a democratic country..Anyone can express their thoughts...So for those who criticize the film negatively, i can't say anything.. But an old-saying comes to my mind-'Kazhuthaiku theriyathu karpoora vaasanai'..

Having said all this, i sat down to think 'who is the 'Aayirathil oruvan' in this film'.. Is it Karthi or Parthiban or reema(literally)?... At last, the one who wins the race is Selvaraghavan... What a man he is?.. Hats off to Selva... He had done an extraordinary job...We should feel proud to get a tamizh director like him!!

Independence on republic day...

It has become a routine for me to blog only on national holidays... i did find a 'mood' to write here on jan 1st,then on jan 15th(pongal) and now on republic day...Really i m a work-shy person and never exerts even to a minimum level..I ll work on to change this attitude...

Its republic day today..Jai Ho... I got a day off from college after 8 continuous working days...i feel independence on republic day...

I quenched my much awaited desire on jan 16th.. Saw Aayirathil Oruvan- a film i was desperately waiting for a long time..a stunning one...Will write a separate post about it later...

Then certainly i have to write my gratitude to a third person.. A lorry driver because of whom i'm safe,well and of course writing now.. Yesterday morning on my way to station i was about to overtake a lorry (say A)in NH one-way... behind me was another lorry(B) which is also trying to overtake lorry A..i think all the 3 were riding nearly at 60kmph... suddenly my XL went off as its fuel ran out in main position..I was panicked and had no clue for what to do next..Really i experienced the fear of death for few moments...The driver of lorry A might have seen my terrified face..he let me go to the corner of the road by slowing down his lorry..I m really grateful to that lorry driver..Without his courtesy i might have not alive now...

On another day while sitting on the footboard of train my feet slightly bumped into a station's platform...

Both these incidents again remind me that, 2010 has not been so good for me... But i know its stupid and superstitious to think in that way..

Over-speed and traveling on footboard... Both are dangerous and i will try to avoid those hereafter..

In this 26 days i had seen 'her' only 3 times.. and had spoken to her only 2 times.. this again provoke my superstitious belief about 2010.... I'm agitated... Will you rescue me, my angel...

Not a great start....

So far 2010 has not been a great year for me...

have 2 main reasons to feel so...

1st is my sem result which literally landed me in a state of shock and desperation.. Yes i was failed in a subject which i never expected to fail..Automotive technology is not a tough paper to fail....
Anyhow i have applied for re-evaluation..Expecting a positive result in that..

Oddly on the other side i had scored a good grade in a worse-written subject...Really strange..

My parents felt deeply upset with my results..My mom as usual has started to talk like there is no tomorrow, no other opportunities for me to lead my life...My dad hasn't reacted much about this,but i can feel his pain.. As they are teachers, studies is all for them..How can i convince them that Studies and marks isn't everything?.. I haven't cared much about my future so far...My prognostic mind always tells me that i ll have a good future...I wish that feeling is optimistic and not over confidence...

The good thing that i did get from this failure is my teacher's consolation and care...Sriram sir, Karthick sir and lab assistant karthick sir- all are so supportive and they keep faith on me that i ll pass.. And even they told me to give money for re-evaluation..I'm really thankful to them...

2nd reason for my soreness is that i haven't seen her for the past 2 weeks..I m really getting disturbed with her thoughts.. having 2 study materials to give her along with lots of love as usual..Hope to see her on monday...

And my parents are now watching 'SANTHOSH SUBRAMANIYAM'-a film that i wanted them to see.. I think that is a very special film that has to be seen by every parent to take their lovable child's marriage decision..I wish my parents should like this film....I think they will...!!

Last day of 2009&1st day of 2010..

1st day in 2010 had been an usual day for me except some pleasant new year wishes from my friends...It is nice to receive their love& care in this special day.. i wish them to make all the days in this year a wonderful day...

My eyes had become tired by watching tv for almost the whole day...

Yesterday is surely a great day for me.. 'She' spoke with me a lot(for d maximum in these 6 months).. In fact i was interrogated by her.. After a span of 6 months of mutual eye contact and some conversations she finally inquired about my name..(i think she was lying..She must have known it from her sister..)

Then she asked me a question which a male should never encounter in his life.. Yes she asked about my mark which i scored in 12th std.. I was completely astounded by this question..Somehow i managed to change the topic by asking her what she is going to do after her higher secondary schooling.. To my surprise she said that her mom is keen in placing her in VIT ( thanks a lot aunty(?!) ).. for a moment i felt like flying and expressed my rejoice about her mom's decision..She is quick enough to say 'No i wont join there'..But i know that words are not from her heart..

Then i gave her this week's study material of 'PUDIYA THALAIMURAI's  -educational supplement.. And some chocolates..she hesitated to get the chocolates and as i said you should not deny a new year's goody, she accepted with smile..Then she asked me a question which i m not going to write it here(at least for few days or months)...Then she wished me Happy New year.. I wished her d same..

I think everything is fine for me nowadays and thank God for keeping me in this position..

All issss wellllll....

Expecting to speak with her tomorrow also..

What's next?.......Write here later..

Good night....