FEB 12
On FEB 12th morning i was waiting for her to cross my home... i was having CAT 1 'dac' exam on that evening... But as usual i did'nt prepare anything for that.... Instead i was preparing and rehearsing to propose my love for her...(Actually i was framing words to that for nearly a month)...Dharmendra was also continuously insisting me to tell my love to her as soon as possible.... So i was certain in proposing her before valentine...
At around 8 45 she crossed my house... My heart started pounding...After some time i left my house... She have 2 routes to her school... i don know which route she will take that day... So i went on the straight road.. But i was wrong.. She did take the other route... So i started going on the reverse direction of the 2nd route so that i can see her... Yes i saw her... She was having a small smile on her face(hmmmmmmmm).. i went very close to her harshly and turned my XL... She screamed 'ouuuch' in fear and stopped.... Then i started riding parallelly with her..
i asked her am i looking like 'poochikaran'?Why are you getting away from me nowadays?...
She replied 'What will i do if you are riding your bike(?!) towards me so harshly?..'
I said 'not today'... Why are you not stopping near my house if i ask you to stop?... Whats your problem?...
She said that her village's boys are saying that the boy(me) who is talking to you is in love with you.. Are you loving him?..
What did you say i asked her...
She said 'i replied them that he(me) is known to our family.. Thats why i'm talking with him'..
After a pause i told her 'How can they(his village boys) digest if a girl like you is talking to me'..(For the first time in my life i was flirting a girl)...
She stared at me for a moment... Then she asked me 'Why are you coming with me? go to your home'...
i said i'm going to college ma'..
then go away-she said..
i replied -i'll wait in other place....
I went away and was waiting for her in a lonely place on her way to school.. She came.. i smiled at her.. She also gave a small smile(hmmmmmm) but i was totally undone by her words..
She said 'Don't talk to me hereafter...'
i was collapsed and asked Why?..What happened now?..
She said 'don't need this hereafter'..
I don know what to do..But i decided not to postpone this anymore...
I started saying 'Actually i was thinking to tell this after you finish your 12th.. I love you and admire you a lot..' saying this i saw her face..
After some 2 seconds she said.. 'No i don love you'.. Please go away now...
i asked her 'Don't you feel pity for me.. i was behind you for a year..'
She said please get away from me now....
Also we are nearing her school... So i don want to talk near her school..
I'll talk to you later.. Saying this i left her...
Her thoughts filled my mind... i was unable to concentrate in my studies that day... My performance was worst on that test... 'Thought i ll get a single digit mark.. but fortunately got double digit 12 for 50'.
The worst thing is that i did'nt even tell a single word from the words i had frame to propose her..Lot of preparations, rehearsals everything went in vain...I think i'm completely losing myself whenever i see that crystal clear face..
What happened on the next day was a bit of tragedy and madness...
Will write it later...
